Welcome to My Story

I hope this can be a place of sharing and healing. I want to share my struggles and surprises on this journey. I want to help you find healing like I did by relying on my faith and pursuing my dream of writing a children's book. Maddy and Scooter: Unlikely Friends is not only my book, but an action response to my grief. I hope you can give birth to your dream!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Well...it's been a year! And what a year it has been!

I know it has been a little over a year since my last post announcing the impending arrival of a long-awaited baby! The journey of pregnancy was a joyous one and concluded in a 40 hour labor with the arrival of our baby girl, Sydney on December 26 at 2:30am! I didn't feel I could post earlier because I wanted to enjoy the pregnancy and not dwell on what could be or might not happen. I honestly didn't truly relax and believe our little one would arrive until about the 6 month when I knew she could probably survive outside the womb even if something crazy happened. Since her birth, I barely have had time to sleep yet alone write and reflect. I am hoping as she begins to sleep a little more (and so do we) that there is more time to get back to writing and definitely reflecting. With all of the struggles and uncertainties about a baby, my body, and all that came with it I still marvel that she is really here. I have been so exhausted for months that it is just starting to set in...I have a daughter!  She is happy, healthy and even trying to crawl.

The journey of infertility at last is complete... or is it? We have already thought about having more kids because we are no spring chickens and adoption has crept up in conversation again. I believe adoption is a calling and I want to be open and actually am open to that, because I believe an adopted child is not born of your womb but of your heart. So we will see what the future holds....will we have an only child or four kids? Who knows?

I do want to emphasize one final time if you are one this journey of infertility don't give up hope! God makes families all different ways and you too will have the family you are meant to have. At night when I am rocking Sydney to sleep I look at her and count my blessings. God has been so good to us and he does answer prayers! Blessing on your journey!!